it took quite some time to swallow the fact that jj is gone. he's only 20 yet this had to happen to him. how unfair can life be? to take everything away from emi and him.

i dont really know what happened. all i know is that it was an accident. how fragile life can be. how easily life can be taken away from someone who had a lot to come in future.

life, in simple words, is nothing already. life, in simple words, is unfair. life, in simple words, can be lost at the snap of the finger. so... what is life? how do you define life? have you make the best of what you can in this life?

omg i'm so angry. cause everyone's so busy to go out with me, i decided to head out on my own later alr. and i got a cut on my index finger. duhh. what a big bad day!

ahhhh. this is crap. I ACTUALLY LOST MY CLINIQUE EYE LINER! HOW BAD CAN THAT BE? and i got hit by the freaking pole!!!!!!! now i have a freaking bum on my head. GRRRR. =((((

time seems to pass so slowly today. i'm so sleepy already. yet i'm happy because i got to eat the bukit purmei lor mee again! =D

i think this song is so cute.

there's only 1 thing 2 do 3 words 4 you.
I love you. (I love you)
there's only 1 way 2 say those 3 words
and that's what i'll do.
I love you.

I love you(I love you)

i'm like super sick. super bad cough and flu, occasional fever and headache, faint and breatheless, and chest pains? that's how i passed my past few days. and i got 2days of mc. thank god. anyways, i bought a red thermo flask! haha. i'm so happy with it. and my online goods are coming tomorrow! yay!

anyways, met up with ifah and jes. the xmas set meals from swensens is like totally cannot make it lah. but their desserts made it up totally! haha.

and dear jessie is flying off to taiwan soon. so till 24 dec, we shall meet! or better still before that. =D

i love this and the previous song i've embedded on my blog. =D

and the previous one, how do i breathe, is dedicated to my love. hehe.

i found the beauty of being alone sometimes.
i saw the beauty of loneliness.
irony it may be.
but...

do you see the beauty i see?






the beautiful tenth day of the month just had to be spoilt by work and cover.

wahaha. i'm meeting up the OC people this fri. i'm happy in a sense but sad at the same time cause i'll be burning a bigger hole in my pocket.

i burnt one last sat alr after buying noctugenist. i spent around 70bucks for a 125ml hair treatment thingy. wth was i thinking?! haha. im officially left with 29bucks in my account. but i will be rich again on xmas! hehe.

meeting up waney and ifah on sun. so im left with sat for my boy. =D

time to act like a tai tai jes!!! we shall go out again next week if u can! maybe with xinfang also! =)

you are a passer-by.
you are an acquaintance.
you are a friend.
you are a close friend.
you are my best friend.
you are someone i cant live without.

which you do you want to be?

met up with Don, Ivan, Jeremy after work. Don brought us to eat SUNNY BAK KU TEH at ang mo kio! it's really nice lah! i love the soup! haha. i'm so happy cause i get to enjoy 2 nice meals in a day!

anyways i skipped work today. cause i was really drained. but i'll jolly well go back to work tomorrow and complete all the tasks set to me. and data mining is really a bore!

i wanna go shopping soon! JES CALL ME AITES?! =D

and if you realised, i redid my blog! haha. sense of achievement! now i only have to find a way to personalize it even more.

they queued for almost an hour before managing to order it. and wow, it was really nice. i believe they use prawn soup as base that's why the base is so nice. and the crispy thing they added in is ABSOLUTELY DELICIOUS! and the wonderful wonderful delicacy is the famous LOR MEE from BT PURMEI! it was a treat by Marvin and the colleagues.

isn't it a beautiful day today?

bored.

why live in self delusion or some people may call it, self denial?

in case some people dont know, i have another blog @ leeanaid.lj.com. why another one? cause i'm pretty much bored with my life. and i'm trying so hard to make it a better one.

fuck. i'm so pissed with the service given by HP! and the attitude given by the stupid reception at SIM!

i was watching bleach at the climax when the CPU decided to die on me!!!! arghhh! how annoying!

first time i made a police report.
first time i went to the police post.
first time i talk to the police officers.
first time i got advices from the officers.

second time i saw him being hurt so badly.
second time i see him trying to protect me from being hurt.

first time i'm going to really take action about it.

watch out bitch!

omg. i'm so gonna die in the next few days cause HP is so going to take my laptop away! so until i fix that damn CPU, i might have to worry being shut out from all network access suddenly! which is so not good. =( and worst is i cant bear to be away from my laptop! i hope they can like expedite the servicing of my laptop! if not i'm so gonna die!

i feel like going shopping again. duhhh.

bf's asleep. so it's me again to backup all those docs on my laptop. stupid boy! hahs. =)

sucks! the thunder is here! and there's no one to protect me now!! =( it's so scary. i'm gonna hide under my blanket now! will be back later!

HAHA THIS IS SO FUNNY!

chest pains.
somebody please kill me.

it's funny how people like to compete. like the amount of friends, people they are in contact of etc etc?
it's funny how people try so hard to maintain a friendship but others just don't appreciate it?
it's funny how people loves to show off the number of friends they have?

but so what?! know what? i don't give a bloody damn now. just a note, when i bother to talk you via msn or even sms or a call, i just wanna know that you're fine and doing well. if you don't appreciate it, it'sokay. i'd give a few more shots. then i'll give up the friendship already. so dont treat me for granted for god's sake. hello? what's wrong with you? you don't use me and dump me when you're done. i treat you as a friend. do you even understand that? sadly, no.

many acquaintances, true friends? few.

so, i'll just carry on with my life. talk to people. those who appreciates what i do for them. i appreciate you guys. even if we dont talk when we meet, it's still nice to have everyone right beside.

and i'm so pissed now cause i cant upload my bangkok photos on facebook! argh!

isn't it a pity how friendship/relationship can turn sour just on the mention of monetary issues?



anyway am back from BKK! love it since it's the first time out with my dearest! tsk tsk. it was a 5day trip with shopping, eating and mostly, exploring around. loves baiyoke boutique! love the buffet, the ice cream. oh my, i'm missing BKK alr! with all the enjoyment comes a big hole in both of our pockets! =( but it's all worth it! time to plan for a travelling experience with my dearest friends~ so please come if i ask you guys along. cause you're important to me. =)

i'm addicted to travelling already!

pollution is an issue there. other than the tuk tuk who loves to drive through the alleys without rules. reversing into another lane while other cars are speeding their way through. how dangerous!!


went to his house in shock. his stupid mom went crazy again i supposed. i pity the other tenant. pretty nice guy but he lost his freedom. haha. had some talk with his siblings. it was so funny can?! brought a printer back to my home. haha. ilovemydumbdumbbf. =D


time to go on a diet! many times i've said but i failed to curb my cravings. =(

time to find my friends back too. cause you know right how people can get close yet drift apart so easily. and how difficult it is to have a real friend. someone who you can really talk to. i thought i've found someone but it appears that it's all my wishful hope? you never know when someone is purely into being friends with you or purely making use of you. right?! such irony it is.

and JES! I WANT MORE SHOPPING! LET'S GO SHOPPING! =D

at the point where keeping everyone together is so hard.






am trying to stand tall even when everything seems to crash down.









it's an art to learn to play with words.

this is bad. so much bad things are heading towards me now. i need a way out. really.

the frequent pains.
make me wonder.
when i will fall.
it's time to do something for myself.
and the people around.
before i regret.










i'm working hard to find my dream job! wish me luck!

thurs was my last day at work. not sure whether if i should be happy or not. i'm in need of a job now! anyway got to know some new people. life wasnt that bad after peach left. =) i'm enjoying life now. it's kinda cool to spend off all your money in just a few minutes sometime. but when you look back, it can suck too. haha.

when it all comes down to relationship or friendship, i didnt know it can leave/break so easily.

short update.

cut my hair short.
treated jes to dinner at waraku de pasta. LOVE THE GRATIN!



went to JB yesterday.
damn fun!
played go kart!
and i got many bruises by ramming into the stack of wheels! hurhur.
love the zi cha.
bought some shows and gummies!



more pictures to be up after i get them!
I LOVE GO-KART! YAY~

went to suki sushi to eat today!







anyways, i caught a stitch on the second attempt! haha. lucky me!

my contract is ending soon! i'm so glad lah! anyway peach is gone. but i knew new friends which is good in a way. =)

D&D was kinda boring but i saw huili, christina, cai hui and ken tay! i miss TC2 somehow though i didnt knew them well.

and i hate that uneasiness i feel in office sometimes.

this is bad and it's up to nowhere.
i'm confused somehow.
where to head from now on?
how how?!

with deeper understanding, differences reveal and conflicts arises.





anyway had a mini meet-up session with the OCBC peeps. it was fun but at the same time pissing cause me and cw's gf didnt managed to catch what we wanted at the toy-catching machine despite many tries; while this really irritating family just catch everything that we wanted in around ten bucks?! rahhhh!!! IRRITATING.

meeting up with jes and ifah tomorrow which means no OT tomorrow! HAHA. i love shopping and meet-ups!

even the smallest, slightest thing you do, shows who you really are.

and i'm learning to be more big-hearted.

i cut my index finger 2 times and another finger one time in two days AND ALL ON MY RIGHT HAND! how great?! i've got 3 plasters on my hand now. and it hurt like hell to go into the water. =((((

anyway i've just book tickets to bangkok!!! yay! i'm so happy lah. i'll be flying off around a month later! and i cleared part of my room! whahaha. thanks to my dearest. double yay! =D

dont try to bootlick me by saying i'm pretty or whatsoever.
or even try saying something that you dont mean it.
cause i wont take that as a compliment.
i take it as an insult instead.
thank you.

i definitely felt like i was dying that day.

not being able to breathe.
not being able to communicate.
not able to stand still.
not able to open my eyes.
not able to see.
not able to hear properly.
not being able to stop crying. tears just fell continuously.
everything was in bits and pieces.
i didnt have any idea what was happening to me.
that was how terrible it was.

i really had those flashback kinda memories.
i was imagining how life would be if i left like that.
leaving my sis and my fat fat like that.
leaving my dad like that.
leaving things undone.
leaving things unfulfilled.
i am scared.

i didnt like the feeling.
horrible.
i didnt know life was that weak.
struggling to breathe.
horrifying.
cant even open my eyes to look where i was.

some many talkings.
i almost couldnt differentiate who was talking.
i just heard an unknown voice saying 'breathe. diana lee breathe.'
the doctor it was.
tears keep falling and falling.
i was literally struggling to breathe.
they sent me to the nearest clinic.
and even called for an ambulance.
the ambulance didnt come in the end.
but i managed to breathe.
i cant remember much.
i fell unconscious.
very.

that was how bad the situation was.
that was how terrible i felt.

i know i've scared you to death.
i'm sorry.
sorry for causing you so much trouble.
now is not my time to go.
i promise i wouldnt leave you now.
i want to see the future with you.
thanks for taking care of me.
i think i would have died somewhere if it wasnt you.
i love you my darling.

i'm so scared of dying now that i've decided to bring the inhaler around.
in case my heart fails me again.
which it should not happen ever again.
no worries people. =)

i need a new bag. from STGE. i hope i have enough with my next month's pay. tsk tsk. i hope the bag i want is cheap enough for me to afford it! hehe.

some pics on 26th june. spot the greedy one. tsk tsk. =P

delicious delicious oysters.













all the food totaled up to a long bill.


camwhore.


jessie. diana. xinfang.


reflections of the stairs.


with lovely jessie.



me with a ghostly hand~


dont ask me what jes is trying to do. HAHA.



more pics to come soon~ time for bed!


oh ya, i had spaghetti just now. and my dearest jie jie cook fried tofu for me. hehe. love you my jie jie!! ***muacks!

attended a wake earlier this week. which more or less, it affected me quite a bit. which more or less reminded me of the past. which more or less broke me down. i was contemplating to ask her to join me on my birthday celebration but before i got the message to her, i received a sms saying her dad just passed away. it sucks to see your dear one leave and to regret when you finally realized you didnt do enough for them while they're right beside you.


something on the lighter side. friday was my birthday! jessie and xinfang treated me to dinner at sun with moon at wheel lock on thurs. we were happily ordering appetizers, drinks and stuff and when we finally got to our main course, we felt so bloated to stuff it down. and sweet them order a green tea tiramisu and green tea ice cream for me before i reach the place!!! i love them so much. hees. =D

then, the actual day i had strawberry cheesecake from polar from ocbc ppl. PLUS one KAYA PANDAN CAKE from PEEJAY! thanks you so much!! night was out with the EMRS peeps, ronald chong plus bf, yixiang and casey! thanks for coming! ate at outback and i got a surprise cake from my beloved BF from bakerzin! I LOVE THIS GUY SO MUCH. HEHE. drinking session after that. and casey got rod to come down too. they made my day~

sat was out to sentosa with the ocbc ppl but it really felt like i'm out with my bf only. but well, think they enjoyed it.

i wanna thank bf, sister, dad, eugene, sandy, kiwi, huizhen, weiliang, kaiying, chee wee, clarence, hanming, peijin, regan, huiyu, timothy, cindy, ivan, jeremy, junjie, bbox, don, dom, clara, casey, yixiang, rod, ifah, wani, jes, xf, scott etc etc. sorry if i missed you out. =x

bf got me a levi's watch. (i love it!)
eugene - body shop voucher. (i'm seriously shocked by the internal mail. thanks!)
weiliang - ang bao. (super shocked too. but i really appreciate it.)
dad - ang bao also. (hehe.)
emrs peeps - bottle of red wine, a set of necklace and earrings and chocolate. (yummy!)
yixiang and casey - box of choc and sweet. (very sweet of both of them. =D)
jes, xf and sis - dinner treat~ (love the food alot alot!)

time to plan for my lovely bf's birthday. wish me everything work out well! =)

i love all my friends~ really. even though we dont meet up often but i hope you cherish the friendship we have.

went to a wake just now. i feel so sad now. this wake reminds me of the one i am at a few years back. just that i was so immatured then.

yeps, i'm not strong.

for my birthday, i'm only asking everyone only once. i'm going to plan everything by myself other than the celebration with my bf. so if you are not happy with the place i'm going, or the food i wanna eat, then too bad. dont come. it's my BIRTHDAY. thank you.

oh man. it's 1plus AM and I'M STILL NOT IN BED! i'm having insomnia. =(

watched soccer last night. and damn SPAIN! make me lose my 5bucks. 92mins leh!!!! wth. arghhh. i was so happy when they drawed before half time. heard many cheering but it didnt go in till the 92nd min! duhhh. anyway it was quite exciting since i was watching with my beloved. tsktsk. play my psp finally like for dont know how many ages. haha.

went shopping with jessie with sponsorship from bf a few days back. bought 2 dress, a top and spend alot on food. today was shopping again but with bf. bought some lingeries, some snacks and cup noodles. and finally my kerastase! i'm loving it! hehs. had pizza hut cause he got a craving for it. i know exactly what you are thinking my darling. your craving, your everything. *big smirks. =]

went to xinfang's condo yesterday. tried the jacuzzi, pool and spa. and i guess i will never wanna try the spa again. i felt so faint after soaking in the 40 degree celsius water! so dehydrated and FAINT. almost lost my breath. hmm, well it wasnt that bad lah. but i really had a hard time trying to breathe. went for zi cha after that. i love her mom! she's so nice lah!! cheers to all moms around!

so many people are missing from my msn contacts since alot of them went in to BMT already! =( i'm losing all my friends. friends friends please come back!

random random.

i love pushing daisies.



and




HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!=D

i'm so bored.
but i dont know what to blog about.
whether to blog about my life? or not?





BUT....
life has been great, recently.


lots of chilling out with all my OCBC friends.
lots of singing and drinking.
lots of eating and chatting.
lots of craps and jokes.
lots of food and more food.
lots of fun and laughter with them around.



SOOOOOOO, KOH CHEE WEE AND GOH WEI LIANG.
YOU BETTER DONT FORGET US!!!! =D
WE SHALL MEET UP RIGHT AFTER YOUR BMT!! that is provided you're free from friends/girlfriends/family commitments! tsktsk.



anyways bf has been trying to plan out my birthday schedule which is like so far away. i havent had any plans yet. so ya. book me fast! wahaha. =X



so ya, i took full day leave to jolly well go back to school and take my cert and then shopping with jessie! provided my finances allow me to! which seems hardly possible since i'm like left with around 10 bucks in my bloody DBS account and less than 50bucks cash. JIALAT!


oh man, this is such a random post! but well, i'm super lazy to blog now! so this picture shall end my post!


left to right: HANMING, HUIYU, DIANA, WEI LIANG, CHEE WEE, REGAN and CINDY!

i wanted to buy ba zhang yesterday. but after i saw the price, i wanna cry. they increased their price by at least half lah! $2.80 for a nonya zhang? =(((((

in the end i bought a $1.30 one instead. and it doesnt taste nice. i'm so sad. I WANNA EAT NICE NICE BA ZHANG!!!

i went home after weiliang's graduation day.
i got a damn shock when i went to the bathroom.
no one understands what i'm feeling now.
NO ONE.
DAMMIT.
what on earth is happening!
i'm so lost track of everything out of a sudden.
i dont know what to do now.
i'm lost.
DAMN LOST.

we were talking about going overseas for holidays. haha. gold coast? i wanna go tasmania. i wanna bring a devil home. =D so you better remember what we had said. you know who you are! haha.

i love my friends. thank you. =)

i didnt know what you were going through until i look back.
call it stupid or naive.
fuck that bloody bitch.
to think that you are more educated.
is that what you do to your own relatives?!
damn.

blah blah blah. people drift apart through the evolution of multi media. yet some brought people closer to each other. eg? games, msn. but ipods, mp3 players, mobile phones? they bring people closer yet push others further.

mobile phones:
sms - short and sweet. cheap too.
calls - can be short and sweet and cheap too. more human touch!

but now? people prefer using sms to convey their messages. WHY?

on the train, i see bout more than 70% of the commuters having a ear piece plug in their ears. or some playing with psp or ds; or busy messaging; or even reading newspapers. what happen to the 'human touch'? when everyone's busy with their own stuffs. what's happening to this society?

but even when losing this so-called human touch, it's weird how people can come together when disasters strike. forking up monies for donations. doing charity events to raise donations.

it's weird. sometimes i dont know how to differentiate. someone who is real or trying to be real acting like someone who he/she is not. why try so hard to be someone else when you are you?






some random stuffs. went to ocbc recreation club. sing, sang, sung. i sound horrible i know. hahs. celebrated cheewee's bday. singer of the night: regan ong. haha. it's fun. it would be nice if they were staying but oh well. stupid ns spoils the day.

i need to go for some retail therapy. JES MESSAGE ME WHEN YOU'RE FREE K! WE NEED TO SHOP TILL WE DROP. haha. tata~

oh ya. it's time to diet again. in case......

everyone knows everyone somehow. this kinda sucks? whatever. it's such a sucky day? i'm like still stuck with my damn flu for dont know how many days already and there's like no signs of recovering? fuck.

a few days back, we saw someone who was some what handicapped. and regan or whoever say she was pitiful. in fact, i dont feel the same way. i admire her. i think she's courageous. she's so admirable. to have the courage to live on. if it was me, i wouldnt have the strength to carry on. furthermore i cant imagine life not being able to talk, listen, walk, feel etc etc. that will suck so much since i've the ability to do everything right now. so stop saying that they are pitiful. they are much stronger than us. much more than we can think of.

let the pictures do the talking.

buffet at suki sushi.
























and i thought that this was pretty gross.




haha. my shen shen in a ball.




and now i present you my gui gui...



















=D


anyway my bf saw that bitch today. haha. fancy acting so proud because you are just a teller? please lah. everyone can do better than you. so quit acting like you are so good.



oh man, i caught the flu bug. =(

oh crap. all these headaches and chest pains are killing me. DAMMIT.

bullshit.





there's nothing like a fairytale.





i'm a perfectionist.
i cant stand imperfections.
even though i'm imperfect.

haha. dinner at sakae on thurs. tsktsk.




my pathetic table.




drawing by zhong de.



our lovely pantry. main sponsers : zhong de. sub sponsors : us. tsk tsk.

before:


after:


some random pictures. this is what we do when we're bored at work.



caught slacking.


alot of zhong de.






went to stage yesterday. disappointing. haha. treated bf and huiyu to dinner at soup restaurant. zhong de like die also dont want go. duhh. so dont give face lah. grrr. anyway i'm gonna get this cap. =D




lastly, look at this.



i'm a lizard~ haha.

walao. such piercing pain through my mind.
and such cramps in my heart.





this isnt good. jialat.

oh man. i think i'm gonna puke from excess usage of the laptop. anyway i didnt know i had a blister and i happily scratched it and it happily peeled and i have a bleeding wound. DAMN PAIN LA! omg. i dont know what to wear tomorrow le. =(((((

they really did asked me bout my sis and if i were to go uni.

the smoke was overwhelming. in addition, my eyes were so so dry. with the smoke, it almost make me tear. we saw the guy who acted as coffee sao de husband. i didnt know he was hakka. he was kinda arrogant. he didnt even smile when we smiled to him. wth. anyways i felt like a lobster when burning those incense paper for my mom. i was red from the heat.

my uncle said with my fringe, i look like the girl in snoopy. the one with specs. they said i look very blur. they said the previous fringe was better. haha. anyways i'm gonna do something to my hair next month.


it's not cool to act strong. totally not cool. i've been thinking bout the point of time when my mom was about to go. i didnt cry at first. why? now that i've been thinking back, it's not like i'm not sad or anything. i was just shocked. totally shocked.

i was sleeping. then, i was just woken up in the middle of the night. my mom sitting in the living room, with my dad and sis by her side. my sis has already started crying. i went to wash up. and i realised what's happening. she was leaving. i was just 14. i didnt know what to do. lost, i was just looking. and looking. and looking. most of my relatives rushed down. she was miserable. but i know she doesnt want to go. then she left. leaving us behind. and finally i get what's going on. i realised she wouldnt be with us anymore. i realised this aint like those tv serials where people dont really die when they die. i realised it's all happening on me. just when i became rebellious, this happened to me.

during her funeral, we were all crying like shit. my dad tried staying strong until his best friend came. and he broke down. it was the first time i saw him cry. and it came back to me, why? why would i abandon my mom to go out and play. or lie to my mom so that i can go out with those so called friends. why i didnt put in my effort to accompany her after school? when none of my 'bestest' friends came in my moment of despair.

and i was obviously at a funeral and the cca i was in threatened me to sack me if i didnt come. i was like wtf. you aint my priority already. this is more important. the thing i was handling was much much more important. i quit in the end.

after she left, everything started crumpling. literally. dad had to close down his business. i simply had no mood to study anymore. i started to do stupid things in school. sms-ing instead of listening in class. skipping class to cry. skipping school to hang out. sneaking out to play in the middle of the night. i flunked most subjects. and i stopped believing in those 'bestest' friend. i began to doubt everything. the life i was having. the things i was saying. the world i was seeing.

i was losing control of everything. i did stupid things after meeting this new clique. just as i starting to pick things up. just as i started believing in friends again a year later. i set the wrong priorities. i will fail deliberately to accompany my friend cause she didnt study. or going her house to chill when o levels the next day. so i ended up in poly.

poly was okay in the beginning. but i began fearing others to know bout my background. i feared that they will laugh at me. i feared being despised at. i feared losing the friends i've made. i feared losing everything again. but conflicts start happening. and those i've called friends werent friends anymore. i met bf. to think that he has more problems at home than me. i didnt know there are situations worst than those portrayed in tv dramas.

i started thinking. thinking if i should care so much bout how others think about me. how others commented bout me. why do i care so much bout what people say about me? i am me. i dont have to care so much as long as i dont do things that will harm others. i was diagnosed with thyroids in year 2. i didnt know how badly it can affect me. i began to keep to myself while trying to cope with thyroids and school work. i stopped talking unless necessary. cause i dont like conflicts. but people just take it another way. in a way that i was the one who dont wanna be included during conversations. but whatever, 3 years of poly life have passed. i'm learning to enter the working society.

now that 6 years have passed. i learned to be myself again. although life's never the same as 6 years ago. no more reunion dinner. no more family dinner. no more family outings. but i will work hard. i know my dad is super proud of my sister now. she's got a second upper. so i must be as good as her. or even better. i wanna earn enough to bring him out for vacation. enough for him to enjoy life and not having to worry bout us anymore. life's too short to be someone else. i am myself. i dont wanna hide like a hermit anymore. i dont wanna lie bout my background anymore. those who know me well will know. i'm living for myself now. not for someone else. not manipulated by anyone anymore.

i wanna cry when i want to. not acting strong when i'm not. not breaking down on comments by others. and enjoying the time, the people i have now not regretting till later. life's real short. real real short.

i'm so bored. i'm so hungry. i'm feeling so down. i'm kinda lost.

anyway gonna go 拜 my mama tomorrow. i think i'm gonna be so bored since my sis aint around. and i think they are going to bombard me with tonnes of question as to why my sis aint here. and if i'm going uni. and there they will go saying i'm not as good as my sis. blah blah blah. dammit.

i feel like going out right now....

all the chest pains and headaches are coming back. but i cant be bothered to go for any checkups anymore.

all the ots are draining me. all the politics. but i'm glad that there's still those i can rely on after being bored of work. just crapping around can make your day.

had dinner with huiyu last night at nyny. had some chats. talking bout life, friends, work, colleagues. talking bout d1. go screw yourself. dont touch me if you not related to me. and i'm not contemplating to be related to you either. i dont like touchy guys.

huiyu's pizza~


my 'chicken chop'.


my candy floss.


huiyu and her floss~


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leow sh has been found today. wth. we search for so long but to no avail yet she just search for the list in like less than half an hour. boo! =(

after waiting for an hour, i gave up. i'm thinking of giving up. really. i'm tired of waiting already. i had enough of waiting. i had enough.

i wanted to make up for both dinners we lost on thurs and fri. but it didnt happen. it didnt. it wont happen again.

i really dont care whether you're rich or not. i really dont care bout any bouquets or gifts. i really dont care bout dining at a high class restaurant or not. i can save up all my money just to spend on you, buy things for you. i can starve myself and save up the money to get something for you and be broke. i can do any and everything for you. but right now, i just want a simple meal. that's all that i want.